Lately I’ve been massively depressed and I’m not afraid to admit it. I’ve always been pretty open about my mental status on here and extremely appreciative of the support. I believe it’s important to be able to express how we’re feeling somewhere in the world, otherwise it can lead to madness from overthinking it.
I’ve been having an especially difficult time dealing life at the current time and have been putting A LOT of pressure on myself to figure out how to progress. I feel guilty all the time and I hate that I’ve convinced myself of how I’m constantly disappointing those around me, regardless of the truth.
In order to combat depression and negative thinking, I’ve developed tricks to help in those moments where it gets really bad. This website is one of the things that I truly love about my life at them moment. It forces me to be creative and to go out in the world so I can create content. I subconsciously put small bits of pressure on myself to make sure that I update somewhat regularly. It’s been quite helpful because I usually feel ecstatic after each post goes live.
I grew up being very fortunate with parents who would take my brother and I on vacations at least once yearly, if not more. It impacted me as a person and ignited a love for traveling within but being older makes it more difficult to do so. Lately I’ve come to the realization that you don’t need to get on an airplane or drive 4+ hours to have a vacation. Sometimes it can just be driving 30 minutes out of the city to go somewhere less populated. I’ve been looking for places nearby (>1-2 hours one way) to explore and that has brought me to Afton State Park as well as the Minnesota Landscape Arboretum.
I’d been meaning to visit the arboretum for a long time and was finally able to recently. I was surprised by how much area the grounds cover. It’s definitely a great place to get unintentional exercise (which I love) from walking. However, they offer tours on a train car and you are able to drive personal cars through the grounds as well. Being there by myself was quite relaxing because I was able to wander around and take pictures freely. I’ve talking about it before but when I’m behind the camera, something about it that just makes me feel really euphoric. Being surrounded by all of the beautiful greenery and landscaping was really nice to take in. The stillness of it all forces you to slow down and just appreciate what’s in front of you. That’s something I am guilty of neglecting in my daily life; being in the moment is nearly impossible due to my anxiety.
It’s really spectacular when I’m able to escape from my head and feel happy. When I was at the arboretum, I had a few bittersweet moments where I was completely in awe of how beautiful the world can be. It’s important to have places like this because it seems nearly impossible for anyone to be in this location and not feel at least a tiny bit happier than they were prior to entering the grounds. What’s really neat is that they also incorporate sculptures and other forms of art throughout. I hope to return soon and experience more of the area. It’s definitely now one of my favorite places in Minnesota and I would recommend visiting if you haven’t done so before.
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Minnesota Landscape Arboretum
$15 admission (expensive but worth it)
Free admission on the third Monday of every month
Chaska, MN 55318